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We used to be partners in crime. Used to be are the key words, but since you've gone back to your wife outside the community. Now I guess this is good a time as any to say goodbye to you. Don't call. I won't be around to answer. Don't respond either, because I won't be available for you to talk to. I guess me loving you and the promises we made to one another weren't enough. So here's where I take my journal and my life and leave. Don't worry, I'll never ask for another promise from you or anyone else there for as long as I still have breath.
Partners in crime? I used to think so. Now, we're no longer partners.. in anything.
Goodbye!
~Shawnie
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"In creating this journal, the author has assumed another person's identity for the sole purpose of entertainment, without intending to obtain a benefit or to of injuring or defrauding either the person whose identity the author has assumed, nor any reader of this content."
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| Semi Private Entry |
[Tue, 05/30/2006 - 11:28am] |
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I groan at the thought of my knee surgery and having to go through that all over again. Blasted Spirit Squad! However I am happy that Hunter took all their asses out lastnight on Raw. I thought of how good it would've been if I had been there. I'd have come to the ring with Sledgie to defend him the way he did me, but after seeing him grab his good ole friend, the Spirit Squad took enroute over the ropes, not to mention Hunter's ability to clear the ring at any given moment. I'm proud of him. Not only because he defended my honor, but because he's willing to take the brunt of Vince's power for me and that opened my eyes. His love for me shone through his glare at Vince lastnight. I had to laugh though when Vince demanded that Hunter join the "kiss my ass club" as the thought of Shane's face being rubbed there instead of mine. How comical it will be to see what Hunter has up his sleeve. God, I love that man. He's my life.
Now on to other things, I glanced at my calendar and remembered it being Brian's birthday yesterday. I missed it again and he's probably wondering if I've forgotten about him. Although I had been angry for a while, it has subsided. Maybe due to the fact that Matt is here with us, I haven't a clue. So I will swallow my pride along with my unforgiveness and wish him a Happy Birthday.
( To Brian )
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| A step up??? |
[Wed, 02/08/2006 - 11:47pm] |
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ROB VAN DAM HOPING FOR PUSH
Rob Van Dam is openly fearing that he won't get a better push now than he did prevously in WWE. He expressed those thoughts in a recent WWE Magazine interview. He went into detail in an interview in the
Long Bach Press-Telegram.
"I had to fight with them for everything," he says about his previous WWE stint. "Hopefully, it will be different now. As far as merchandising goes, they're supposed to have my new t-shirt available at the Royal Rumble and I'll be on the cover of the new Raw magazine. I think I showed them something with my interview at the ECW pay-per-view (June 12, 2005), (so) now maybe they have more confidence in my ability behind the microphone."
Regarding whom he'd like to wrestle, he brought up Shawn Michaels: "Long term, I wanna go after HBK... A lot of my friends had mentioned that they'd like to see me in the ring with him, but I wasn't really feeling it. But, I ended up ordering Summerslam in August and watched Shawn Michaels wrestling Hulk Hogan, I changed my views. I saw two very skilled guys have a great match and bring out the best in each other. I feel like I could bring that out again in HBK."
That's a bit interesting RVD. But do you honestly think that you taking ME on in the ring will give you a "step up" in the business? *snorts* Oh wait, I almost forgot who I was talking about. *smirk*
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| ~Private Entry~ |
[Tue, 02/07/2006 - 08:55am] |
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I sat and stared at her post for hours after Hunter went to bed. She really is pregnant. A son. Oh God! My thoughts click back to the conversation Hunter and I had backstage weeks ago when I first learned of her pregnancy. What if it actually is Paul's baby? She pulled this several months earlier and it turned out they shared a child..Angel Christine, who God had taken to live with Him for reasons which are unknown by man. Only God knows why, but now I'm faced with this. A son, a son she claims is his. I close my eyes and swallow hard before reluctantly x'ing out of the page, yet I can't bring myself up off the couch and that is where I stayed the whole night.
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| Let's talk about ...what? |
[Mon, 02/06/2006 - 09:29am] |
There are some people backstage who are upset at Triple H because he was pushing for Edge to lose the title to Cena at Royal Rumble to line himself up for a title match with Cena at WrestleMania. Many people thought that Edge was doing very well as champion and had managed to get himself over with the fans.
Hunter deserves it!
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-Backstage, McMahon approached Michaels in the locker room. "When will your luck run out?" asked McMahon. Michaels asked McMahon why he's on him. "Is it because I told you to move on? You're going psycho on me. If it bothered you that much, I'm sorry. Do whatever it
is that makes you happy. Do what you gotta do." McMahon smiled and said, "That's just what I'm going to do. I'm going to do what makes me happy. That's one of my New Year's Resolutions." He said he has more money than all of the fans in the arena combined. "I've got more money than God and I intend to spend it on myself and have a good time. I'm gonna turn this business back some 10, 20, or 30 years. I'm going to turn it back to when I personally epitomized this business when it was sex, drugs, and rock and roll. Back to the all-night parties, Shawn." He said he's starting all over again tonight. "That's what I'm going to do, because I feel as though I have the right to do that. I'm Vince McMahon. I can do whatever I want to do. So I'm going back to the all-night parties. I'm going back to not
giving a damn about anybody or anything because I believe Shawn, you only go around once in this life, and I intend to go 'round like no man in history. So, what about it? You want to join me in a little history. Want to join me in decadence. Haven't you played the role
long enough of the loving, faithful, loyal husband. The loving father long enough?" He predicted Shawn's heart would betray him. "What about walkin' on the wild side? Whatever happened to that brash, pill-popping son of a bitch Shawn Michaels? What happened to that
guy? Join me in going back to where you belong? What about it, Shawn?" Shawn simply said, "No. Never." McMahon seemed taken aback. "No? You disappoint me. You so disappoint me." He then said my luck runs out at the Royal Rumble this Sunday. "I guaran-damn-tee it," he concluded.
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| WWE RAW House Show Report |
[Mon, 01/23/2006 - 07:27am] |
WWE RAW House Show Report
1/21 RAW BRAND RESULTS FROM BRISTOL, TN
Shawn Michaels and The Big Show beat HHH and Chris Masters.
Best match of the night.
Biggest Pops:
1) John Cena
2) Big Show and HBK
Biggest Heat:
1) HHH and Chris Masters
See, we still have to give them what they wanna see, Hunter. The best match of the night, even though I did kick your butt. *smirk*
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Guess ole Vinnie Mac didnt like it that I pulled my win out right from underneath Kurt's ole nose. Thanks Daivari for the tip off ya loser. Oh and..how's your face? Shouldn't be in the way of that nasty Sweet Chin..it might hurt a little. Yeahhhhhhhhh so, I got an escort out of the building, I was planning to leave anyways. The limo awaited a "strong sense" like me anyways. Wouldn't you say Hunter? *smirk* Thanks for the.. *clears throat* ..on our way home. *winks*..I love you.
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| ~Semi-Private Entry~ |
[Thu, 01/12/2006 - 09:45pm] |
I've been down on my knees more than usual lately, praying to God for guidance in making important decisions in my life. First, starting with my divorce and how I feel around that. To me, family values are extremely important and family always comes first. My children, Maddy, Cam and yes even Brian have always come first in my life before anything else...even my career. But things now have taken on a new twist that has left me unprepared, quite angry and resentful of certain things. Namely keeping me quiet for the past week and a half. Those who know me best, know how I am and with that I can only say one thing...I've strived to be the best I can be and when unexpected SHIT happens, it throws me for a loop and kept me quiet for the most part. But now I've decided on a few things that I hope will shed light on a few people and how I feel about them in particular. I've also made a few decisions about my immediate future concerning my wife, my kids and my career..and Hunter..not that he's not a first of my priorities, but the decisions around this divorce have been weighing on my heart and mind for several months has finally taken a turn. I've faced many forks in the road always knowing which to take, but this time it has left me burdened, weighed down and confused. I read Brian's message that he posted days ago, leaving no way for anyone to respond. The words that were written there actually got me thinking and really looking at myself and the many failures in my life and I've come to a conclusion around that as well. And the conclusion is this...
To Brian: I wanted to let you know that I read your message you posted several days earlier and all I can say to you Brian, is this. If you feel so unhappy with the way I treated you, then there's not a damn thing I can do about that. You mentioned about not having a "real family" as you so nicely quoted....
I wonder what it's like to have a real family? A mother and father who love and adore you, a brother and sister to play and grow up with who actually know you're their brother, cousins to play with who don't try to disown you at every chance... I wish I could've had that. What I had was good.. but twisted. Fucked up and yet happy all at once. I love my "family." My "dad," my "step-dad," my "brother" and "sister," and even my "cousin." Now it's all fucked up and most of it is my fault. I destroyed what little bit I had.
...and with that, I only can say that if everything I've ever taught you and given you wasn't enough, then I'm sorry. I gave you everything I possibly could give you but it still seems never to be enough. I took you in when you were only a child and raised you the best way I knew how and yet you think that you never had a real family that loved and adored you, then you are sadly mistaken. What you had was damn good and a helluva lot better than where you could've been. Don't think for one damn second that I never thought about destroying the one guilty party that robbed you of your very own self worth. Twisted? Maybe..but at the same time you can say you were safe and not always having to worry about your well being. I gave you the respect that I so rightly deserved back. So bury your selfish little ways because I'm tired of it. I gave you everything I had and then some, and I treated you as my own flesh and blood..my own son. So, in closing I will leave you with this... Forgiveness is in the eye of the Beholder, yet how can one forget? So be it.
To Matthew: Family has always been sacred. You know that and I know that. What you did was inexcusable and I've thought long and hard as to why you would've even done such a inane act, and as hard as I try to understand why you did it, all I can come up with is it being my own damn fault. Not that you aren't off the hook mind you, but that I know how it was back in the day when you, me and Hunter were using and how can one blame for such an act in bringing a young teenage boy into that scene. And now that this is all in the open, I come, putting all my cards on the table, laying the ace down to your king. I know damn well you know what that analogy means so I will close in saying the same thing I said to Brian. Forgiveness is in the eye of the Beholder, yet how can one forget? So be it. Do what you will with this, Matt.
To James: I remember you once saying you respected me as a person and a wrestler, but your actions proved otherwise. If you so choose no regard for the way I saw things, that is soley up to you. I cannot and will not try to change what you think of me nor do I intend to. Do know that you are with a member of Hickenbottom blood that I happen to care about. I'm sure if it would've been under different circumstances, you and I might've gotten off to a better start. So be it. Some things can't be changed. Let bygones be bygones and yet I say the same thing..Forgiveness is in the eye of the Beholder, yet how can one forget?
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| Sting, Michaels and Russo to be on TBN |
[Tue, 01/10/2006 - 08:21am] |
Sting, Vince Russo, and Shawn Michaels will all be appearing on Trinity Broadcasting Network's (TBN) Praise the Lord show. The time and date is Thursday, January 12th, 10:00PM Eastern. It will repeat on Friday, January 13th at 4:00PM Eastern.
Pro Wrestling Insider
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[Mon, 01/02/2006 - 11:50pm] |
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Vince McMahon I gave you everything. Why are you doing this? Why Vince? *shakes head, staring at the floor* You should've spit in my face, huh? No, instead you bring in Kane and say I can't superkick him or I'm gonna be thrown out. But'cha didnt think I'd superkick Kane at all. I got my shot in before the FU was delivered but I still have to ask you one thing, Vince..WHY?
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[Mon, 01/02/2006 - 12:09pm] |
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Here is a link to a video clip of BG James and Kip James discussing Triple H. Be forewarned that the clip contains STRONG language, especially on the part of Kip. May not be suitable for some.
http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=Jz46dHxK_Do
Kip and BG, I only have one thing to say to you. For the original members of DX, you two are beyond appauling in my book to sit there on your high horses and completely belittle the very ONE who MADE YOU... who got you two where you are today!!! Ya bastards!!! *growls*
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I wanted to hit him. I felt it. The things he said to me, I wanted to hit him. "Don't make me screw you" I gave him "that look" as I took off my jacket..I looked at him square in the face and I held back hearing Hunter's voice in my head saying "Don't do it baby, just calm down". Vince was smart to walk away. I felt if he didn't I would've gotten fired right there on the spot. I kept my eyes on him when he slowly walked down the steel steps and to the ramp. I kept my glare on him the same way I looked at Hogan and Shelton. I sooooooo wanted to hit him.
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[Thu, 12/22/2005 - 10:08pm] |
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Oh My Fucking God! I can't stop reading what Brian put on the kids' journal. Who the hell is Chris Cage? Oh wait..I think I recognize him. If I'm not mistaken..he was one of the guys in super 8. He was standing beside Brian..fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck! God no. "raped Hickenbottom blood" what the hell? NO..it's not..Matt? Fuck no. Don't tell me. It can't be. My own cousin? God no!!! Please tell me he didn't! Hunter? WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THIS????
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